I really don’t understand. I dont think I’m a selfish person. I pride myself that I’m not. But, if I care about school for ONCE in my life and I tell you I have a TEST, do not ask me to drop you to work while I’m studying. ESPECIALLY when a perfectly IDIOTIC brother playing Diablo 3 is downstairs doing JACK all with NO job, NO school and NO realistic ambitions for life.
And after that, I feel BAD for expecting my BROTHER to drop mom to work. Why? Because I feel I’m obligated and HE isn’t. Why? CAUSE HE never does ANYTHING and I’m picking up for HIS slack in this house. He claims he cant find a job? There are SO many jobs out there that he is capable of doing. Just yesterday I told him I saw many jobs on Kijiji he could apply for… what did he say? “cool”.
I once had 4 jobs at ONE time to pay my way. I started working when I was 14 and I’ve never asked my parents for money since [except for tuition]. My 20 year old brother has NEVER had a job and gets money from my parents. Seriously? I would be RICH if I got that same money.
This is fucking bullshit.
I feel BAD for wanting to STUDY. I feel SELFISH for studying.
Now I want to cry and I’ve gotta leave in 10 minutes for a 25% exam. Perfect.
I pretty much get depressed when I do this.
I had a dream I was on board a ship. The purpose was that I was selected for something.. maybe a special school? a bridesmaid in a wedding? an asset to a group? I just know that I was selected.
After spending some time on the ship, I noticed my ex boyfriend was also aboard. It didn’t effect me…until the ship hit something and was going to sink. I tried to save him and I couldn’t. So I abandoned the ship.
I had another dream after that. I was in my garage about to leave for a fancy party. I was dressed up in a dress and was ready to leave with my current boyfriend when I realized I hadn’t shaved my legs.
I sat in the garage with a razor and a bowl of water and began shaving my legs with my dress on. My ex boyfriend appeared as I was doing this. He said he still loved me. I told him I didn’t feel the same way and I was sorry.
He said, “Then why did you try to save me?”
[I don’t remember if this line was actually SAID or just implied in my head]
Anyways, dream analysis has always been interesting. And although I don’t believe in it….
To dream that a ship has crashed or sunk suggests that you are feeling emotionally out of control. You are expressing some fear or uncertainly within your emotional state. You are afraid of losing something close to you or that something will end because of certain difficulties.
To dream that you abandon ship indicates that you need to move on and let go. Your emotion may be holding you back. Alternatively, consider the phrase “jumping ship”, to indicate changing of sides.
To dream that you are shaving suggests that you are making a minor life-changing decision. Some aspect of your daily routine is being altered. Alternatively, it may represent your severe attitude or some sort of self-punishment. It can also have sexual connotations.
At college, we learn about Sesame Street. We should get cookies too
Modesty is overrated.
[Beliefs portrayed are that of the creator and not of me, although I am the woman in the picture]
I was a good friend, but holy shit I was the typical annnoyingggg girl obsessing over some cute boy who didn’t know I existed…and I took that to heart.